frustrated...

im playing around acting homeless... i wanna shower sleep then shower
again...and then fall asleep permanently...

dying...

I'm sitting at the computer in the library...someplace in Sacramento. I'm slowly dying, and I don't know how to combat this disease. I don't know how to save myself. I want to tell you I'm trying, but I don't think that's the case. Also, last time I looked at this computer, it said I have 5 minutes left, now I have 12 minutes.

I need to save myself from myself...I can't even tell you the name of this disease, the symptoms, the treatment. I just know it hurts. My mind, body and soul is suffering. I never even dreamed it would get this point. How did I get here? How did all I know, learn, absorb go down the drain?

I need help. I'm screaming for it...

Can you hear me?