Man, I just wish he wouldn't have infiltrated so many parts of my life. "I wanna be a part of your life." But shit, I want you to only be a part of my life. I am so serious about this infertility thing. I'll always be the #loser, you know? I'll never be truly connected with someone. "I could never right my wrongs, unless I write them down for real. PS." This is just so hard for me, I really feel in my soul that I'm here to help him through this. I don't mean to save, convert or let him run over me...but everything just seemed to fall exactly into place. I don't know why I let myself stress me out.
He's a goddamn liar though. I'm not sure if I'm down for that - you know? How much heartache am I supposed to endure in order to have full joy, "and in him my joy made complete." God, forgive me. I'm so shallow, so dependent and things that I need not depend on. Why am I so weak? Why don't I know that your love is all around me, that it resonates through me? Why can't I recognize your voice?
Anyway, listen to that ish... #poeticjustice
