Lightweight in the same place, a little bit better. I'm not really sure what he does, but I know I'm not messing around. So why do I keep thinking he is? Probably to protect myself, probably because I'm not messing around, but I think about it. But I don't ... I think about all that I would lose if I did. But ... why do I get angry so quickly? So tough? Why are we having the same arguments over and over. My face breaks out in small hives - like my face is on fire I'm so stressed out. I eat so much I feel like throwing up - LOL! It sucks, I wanna eat normal. Who can I run to? I went to the graveyard today - and said sorry to my grandmother. And I said sorry to God - because, its really Him I know I'm disappointing.